We’re almost half way through this year and I think this year has been the best yet. It started off a bit rocky. I became unemployed, I broke my jaw, my boyfriend and I hit a bump or two but I think, if it wasn’t for any of that…I wouldn’t have what I have now. I don’t mean anything materialistically, I guess what I have now are lessons learned and given opportunities.
Being unemployed is helping me focus with school and helping me get to my goals little by little. It sucks to be short on cash on times but it’s all going to pay off at the end.
What lead to me breaking my jaw was one of the most frightening things that has ever happened to me. I couldn’t sleep, and if I did I would wake up constantly throughout the night because I would have insane nightmares. Until this day, I still have nightmares. I am still fighting demons inside of me. When I go out, I am more precautious than before. I am constantly looking over my shoulder, giving the person next to me that side eye. But I’m going to make my unfortunate experience into a positive one and one day I plan to help people.
Not only has this opened my eyes into wanting to help others but I realized those who were there for me and tried to help me. Those that I considered friends were not. And those that I had my doubts about showed me their true colors. It’s unfortunate, that something negative had to happen in order to recognize the real from the fakes. Seeing those people that visited me, called me and checked up on me, meant a lot to me. If it was not with the support of my family and my friends, I do not think I would have gotten through this situation.
Last but not least, my boyfriend and me. Obviously these are things that are kept between us and not to be shared but we hit a few bumps. However, we spoke about it and even though things can be difficult at times, we have learned to deal with it. If it was not for all of that, then he and I would not be as close as we are now. I appreciate him because he helps and motivates me with my life and my passions. He brings out the good in me. I guess things happen for a reason.
The year is half way through and I expect nothing but happiness and positivity to come. I am almost done with school. I am in hopes of starting my career soon. And as long as I have my family, friends and boyfriend to support me and be by my side, that is all I need.